Title: A Different Blue
Author: Amy Harmon
“I’m nobody! Who are you?
Are you nobody, too?
Then there’s a pair of us,
don’t tell- they’d banish us,
I just reread this book, and I can’t believe I forgot how much I loved it. A Different Blue has earned a place on my favorites shelf for life. Amy Harmon is one of those authors where I know, without a shadow of a doubt, that I will fall in love with anything she writes, and that is pure talent.
It’s hard to like Blue at first, because she’s that girl- the slutty, b*tchy girl that everyone avoids (except for teenaged boys). She hides behind this wall of aggression, but inside, she only craves one thing and that is to figure out just who she is. People around her think they know the real her, but they are wrong. So very wrong.
Abandoned by her mother at a very young age, she is raised by a strange man who takes her in as his own. Even though he isn’t a typical father figure, Blue still loves him and picks up his love for wood carving. It’s the one thing she is passionate about, and very good at. It’s her only escape, her only solace.
“He made beautiful things. Carving makes me feel close to him… My father said carving requires looking beyond what is obvious to what is possible.”
Then enters Wilson, the new and young History teacher. He’s british and he’s handsome, which instantly makes him interesting among Blue’s peers, and try as she might, she can’t resist his charm. Even though she tries to push him away, he doesn’t give up. He’s determined to figure out this girl with a weird name, who wears these tight clothes, and has the tongue of a viper. He knows there is something deeper inside.
“We all feel like we are on the outside, looking in. We all feel scattered. But I think it’s that self-awareness that actually makes us somebody. And you are definitely somebody, Blue. You may not be a work of art, but you are definitely a piece of work.”- Wilson
Eventually he is able to bring down her walls, and they form a deep friendship. There is more simmering just below the surface, but neither are willing to admit it out loud.
On Blue’s quest to find out who she is, she faces many trials and obstacles along the way, and has to make some very important decisions. Will she end up like the mother who abandoned her? Or will she reach for her dreams and become something greater? This is a beautiful story of redemption, resolution, revelation, and relevance. It’s about shedding labels and finding yourself.
“I was scarred, but I was not broken. Beneath my insecurities, beneath my pain, beneath my struggle, beneath it all, I was still whole.”
I was instantly sucked into this story, into the character’s lives, and it was like I was there right along with them, experiencing every moment, every emotion. That’s the beauty of Amy’s writing- she doesn’t make you feel like an outsider, she makes you feel like you belong in the story, that you are experiencing the journey right along with the characters. You feel their pain and their happiness. The characters stick with you long after you finish the very last sentence, and they will stay in your heart for as long as you let them.
“I keep wishing you had had a better life… a different life. But a different life would have made you a different Blue.” He looked at me then. “And that would be the biggest tragedy of all.”