Title: Full Tilt
Series: Full Tilt #1
Author: Emma Scott
Daniela’s rating: 5 stars
**ARC provided by Netgalley in exchange for an honest review.
“I would love you forever, if I only had the chance…”
Kacey Dawson has always lived life on the edge–impulsively, sometimes recklessly. And now, as lead guitarist for a hot up-and-coming band, she is poised at the brink of fame and fortune. But she is torn between wanting to be a serious musician, and the demons that lure her down the glittering, but alcohol-soaked path of rock stardom. A wrecked concert in Las Vegas threatens to ruin her career entirely. She wakes up with the hangover from hell and no memory of the night before, or how she ended up on her limo driver’s couch…
Jonah Fletcher is running out of time. He knows his situation is hopeless, and he’s vowed to make the most of the handful of months he has left to him. His plans include seeing the opening of his glass installation at a prestigious art gallery…they do not include falling in love with a wild, tempestuous rock musician who wound up passed out on his couch.
Jonah sees that Kacey is on a path to self-destruction. He lets her crash with him for a few days to dry out and get her head on straight. But neither of them expected the deep connection they felt, or how that connection could grow so fast from friendship into something more. Something deep and pure and life-changing…something as fragile as glass, that they both know will shatter in the end no matter how hard they try to hold on to it.
Full Tilt is a story about what it means to love with your whole heart, to sacrifice, to experience terrible grief and soaring joy. To live life with all its beauty, and all its pain, and in the end to be able to smile through tears and know you wouldn’t have changed a thing.
I didn’t expect this. I didn’t expect to fall so hard for this book, but I did. I fell for Jonah, for Kacey, even Theo. This is the first book of the FULL TILT series, and the second book ALL IN just came out so make sure to check it out as well 🙂 (I haven’t read it, but I’m planning it to be my read this week!)
“Lovers don’t finally meet somewhere.
They are in each other all along”
Ok so, we have a rock star, Kacey. She’s down this destructive path, one she can’t seem to get out of. A vicious circle: first comes rejection, then the booze, and then… whatever bad decision presents itself at the moment. Usually, a guy. But it’s in the middle of one of these crazy nights, that she ends up crashing at her limo driver’s house. She doesn’t know what to do with herself when she’s around him, the only thing she knows is that she can finally be herself. There’s no need for the rock star facade and there are definitely no strings attached. Or so she thought.
Are you the kind of person who enjoys their life? Sure, we all have some stressful and sad moments, but… are you the kind of person that dwells on them? Or the kind that moves on towards the happy things in life? We can’t live without pain and sadness, but that doesn’t mean life can only be about just that. The beauty of it is that there will always be something good that will take that hidden smile and make it come out. Always. We just need to pay attention so it doesn’t pass us by.
I found this story incredibly moving. I started reading about this girl who apparently has it all: the fame, the money, the friends. Only she couldn’t care less about the fame, the money is just one way to get the booze, and the friends… well, I don’t know if you can really call them that. She’s going down fast and it’s a matter of time until she ends up in a hole, which she won’t be able to climb out. There’s no one out there that cares enough to make her see and understand that she’s slowly killing herself. She may not be the strongest character at first, because life has kicked her hard when she was already down, but seeing her become the person she ends up being, was a precious journey. She’s never had anyone that truly cared about her in her life. Those who should’ve loved her no matter what, gave her their backs. Those who supposedly care about her just indulge her bad habits, just to make sure their success is not affected in any negative way. So, who stands by her? I believe we’re beings in need of company, we need to feel cherished and loved. And I truly believe it doesn’t make us weak. Everyone can be their own person, be whoever they want to be and do whatever they want to do and still count on people around them. So it hurt to see how lonely Kacey was.
“I hate that people leave when they’re supposed to stay.”
But then again… there’s always a light at the end of the tunnel, right? The second she met Jonah she couldn’t be the person she used to be, because he immediately inspired her to be the best person she could ever be. God, I love Jonah. I loved his strong personality, he’s way of seeing life even in the darkest of moments. His emotions run deep and I could feel every single one of them; the love, anger, sadness, and happiness. His strength inspired them all. I absolutely loved reading about him, meeting him and falling for him.
“My pushing you away was never about mistrusting you. It was me not wanting to hurt you. That’s all I’ve ever wanted, since the first moment I saw you. To protect you. To keep you safe.”
I never thought I would fall for this book as hard as I did. It’s perfectly written, the pace, the details, the feelings. I started crying like halfway through the book, because YES I cry easily, but it was more than just that. The story got under my skin and I couldn’t stop reading and feeling and being part of it. I highly recommend this one, if you’re in the mood of a tear-jerker.
I can’t wait to read the second book of this series!!!!!!!